Day 59 adderall free πŸ˜„

  
Okay guys,

So I’m not going to lie it’s time to face the facts.  I’m a fat bitch now!  I’ve gained 14 pounds since I got off my perscription in 59 days 😭 

From a logical standpoint… I usually am a very healthy eater.  The first month and a half off I started eating twix bars and snickers bars off the wide.  Candy corn, and tons of rice. Pizza… Basically anything because I felt like a starving child.

So now I’m seriously doing some damage control and I put myself on a diet.  I mean these are typical withdrawl symptoms so I can’t say I didn’t see it coming but as each day passes by I slowly (very slowly) am feeling more stable.  Aka less like a starving child. 

I’m not going to lie either but this really sucks.  I ran out of my In Joy and barely made it out of bed for work.  I’m really realizing how long it’s going to take for me to get better.  Now when I look at each day it depresses me instead of making me feel better.

I have no motivation.  The one day I didn’t take my caffeine supplement in the morning I ended up passing out from 10:30-3pm on my couch when I was supposed to be doing my homework.  It’s hard to get me to have any energy or motivation to do anything without my “total control” supplement, or my Addrena.

This process is nowhere near over and it’s beyond depressing.  I also messed up my days on my chart so I was even less far along then I thought πŸ€•

Each day is a struggle.

  
– Your Friendly Anonymous Adderall Abuser πŸ’‹

Day 50 off adderall πŸ˜„

  
Herro, 

So I feel like I should be fist pumping and doing handstands and jumping jacks because of the fact I made it to day 50.  Sadly I feel off. 

I read this girls webpage about quitting adderall after being perscribed it for 7 years which is longer than I was.  She said it has been a year and she still feels like every day feels like your birthday and your funeral.

That’s so true!

I’m currently in the car writing this blog as my boyfriend is literally telling me the longest most hyperactive speech on why or why not people should be legally allowed to have guns and I am just sitting here blogging instead.  I wish I had an audio recording of this.  It’s not his fault I’m having a “funeral” type moment but this is kind of hilarious.  And sad at the same time.  I’m such a bitch.  I just feel so emotionless at times… Its like I am either super happy, nothing, or super depressed.  It’s not like a bipolar person feeling at all it’s just… You feel everything and nothing at the same time.

Well, CHEERS to Day 50!

Sorry about this totally pointless blog posts. 

  
– Your Friendly Anonymous Adderall Abuser πŸ’‹

Day 47 ✌🏻️the beginning of the workout obsession

  
Hi,

So today (day 47) I realized I wanted to see how long I’ve even been working out for again since I have cut out my adderall.

Also, I don’t remember if I mentioned that I did finally get on the scale and realized I gained 10 lbs in just one month off the drug… But once the acute, and post acute withdrawl symptoms started to fade, I slowly started regaining energy to do more then sluggishly make it through my day.
I’ve been working out again for about 20 days so almost three weeks.  I’ve tried to do something physically active for almost half of those days which is pretty awesome to me.  I feel like working out is helping me detox, and sweat out everything built up inside.

On the down side, I am really starting to realize the seriousness of being ever perscribed a schedule II drug in the first place, and how long my recovery really may take.  I unfortunately still don’t have my health insurance card yet, so I can’t even go to the doctors and get some actual advice, or a check up on more things I can do to speed up my recovery and get myself back to normal.  

Being perscribed something as serious as adderall, and taking it daily for six years, and a high dose can do some serious damage to your brain, and it can take months, to years to finally rebalance out.  There may even be some damage done that can’t be fixed… The worst part is not knowing, and that I will just have to wait it out. 

Like I keep telling myself every day… 

“One day at a time!”

– Your Friendly Anonymous Adderall Abuser πŸ’‹

  

Day 45 off my 45mg of Adderall πŸ˜„β€οΈ

  
Aroha,

Everything is slowly coming back to me.  My energy levels, my stability. It’s my one day off completely from my two schools, and work and it’s not even 10 am and I’ve already completely re arranged my room, and put away all my laundry and am ready to start the day…. Also preparing to go on this crazy waterfall hike.  Whenever I start feeling depressed it’s good to work out, and for me especially, get out in nature.

I feel like because it’s day 45, off my 45 mg perscription I should spend the whole day celebrating.  I can’t believe it’s been 45 days already.  It’s jaw dropping.  If I was doing this the correct way, and going to my doctors regularly, etc they usually say 90 days off is when you are in the clear.  I will probably continue my blog  until then, or at least try to.  Tomorrow I will share my miracle supplements that have been helping me get through the day without being completely tired, and falling asleep.  I also have already written, but never shared my mood enhancement supplements I also have been taking.  I really think they are the only thing that has been keeping me from experiencing any extreme depressed moments throughout my withdrawl experience.

It’s only going to get better from here, and ya I may be back to my hyeractive fiesty self but HEY. That was me before I was perscribed my adderall and I’m finding the old me and she has no filter and is quite entertaining πŸ˜‰ 

Being medicated just holds you back from being you.  My friend shared this pic with me on my Facebook and I just had to share it with you.

  -Your Friendly Anonymous Adderall Abuser πŸ’‹

44 days off Adderall 😁

  
Hi guys,

It’s crazy to think that it’s already been 44 days since I quit my perscription.  To have been so controlled by a drug for 6 whole years of my life now feels pathetic for me.  I literally thought I needed it.  I couldn’t live without it.  I thought I would die without it. 

Now….

I feel more and more like myself then ever before.  My energy levels are slowly returning.  I’m still my hyper ass self…. I’m a Gemini so I already am naturally ADHD as hell. 

But I don’t feel sick anymore.  Going back and reading my other blog posts from before I can’t believe how sick I was.  How hard to was struggling to get through each day. 

“I truly feel like going through adderall withdrawls was on of the worst points of my life. By far.”

Not all people are meant to be put on perscription drugs by a doctor for little reasons like… Having a short attention span, or being a little hyperactive.  Everyone can have a hard time studying and paying attention to stuff.  Especially if it’s boring and not interesting.  That doesn’t mean you need legal meth to get you through it.

Be brave guys,

Cause trust me.  I have a high addiction problem to many things and if I could get off adderall anyone can.  It’s all about your willingness to try.

Sincerely,

Your Friendly Anonymous Adderall Abuser πŸ’‹ 

41 days off adderall 😁

  
I don’t know how it happened but I have been so busy I didn’t even realize I have made it to 41 days off my adderall perscription!  My energy levels are still a little funky, and my memory when it comes to homework.  

Unfortunately,

The weight gain is real.  I’ve gained ten pounds since I’ve been off my adderall, but now that I’ve finally been going back to the gym hopefully I can reverse that process.

Still having a hard time being motivated with things.  Each day gets better, and better.  I can feel the difference.  Working out really helps.  

If I can do it anyone can do it.  I have always had huge problems with addictions my whole life.  Being addicted to adderall was something I never thought I would see the day coming.  Especially after being on the drug for six whole years.

Stay positive πŸ™‚

Your friendly anonymous adderall abuser 😘😘😘

Day 31 off Adderall 😍

  

So yesterday I spent the entire day celebrating my ONE MONTH OFF MY ADDERALL PERSCRIPTION!

I am so proud of myself it’s ridiculous.  Every day I slowly feel better, and better.  Quitting cold turkey felt like shit, and I’m not going to lie the first two weeks were probably the worst two weeks of my entire life.  I’ve never experienced that type of withdrawl from anything before, and I was so sick, and felt so messed up mentally, and physically.  

I am so glad I made this blog because even though no one really reads it, I get a full look at my transformation through my withdrawl process since I started tapering off my 45 mg dose towards the end of June. 

I was going to make my cut off day December 31, but I am so proud I did it sooner.  I feel like I was more safe that I did taper in the beginning.  If I quit 45 mg cold turkey versus 25 mg cold turkey I definitely could have died.  I had such bad withdrawls, if they were twice that I don’t know how I would have made it through.

I am going to continue my blog but I really do believe the worst part is over.  Now I just continue to heal πŸ˜‡

Anything is possible if you set your mind to it.

– Your Friendly Anonymous Adderall Abuser πŸ’‹