In a couple hours I will be 100 days off my adderall perscription. The hard days are now far behind me and I really am starting to feel like my old self. A friend I haven’t seen in about three years came down to visit and she was shocked by the dramatic change in me and my personality.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and when I look back on my adderall days, I was so angry. Barely sleeping, hated everything. I have always been a person with an angry, and depressive side but the adderall I truly believe put me on another level.
Yes. I still get tired during the day
Yes. I am definitely taking a little below the max safe allowed amount of caffeine for a human to intake a day (but not as much since school is over and I am on winter break)
Yes. I am still not 100% mentally stable but I feel better than I have felt in six years.
I am still having trouble focusing and studying, and keeping up with work. It’s also difficult during sick season, and I am still working really hard to get back down to my normal weight. It’s all just a process and I know it will take a while but atleast I’m doing it.
With my celebration of basically 100 days off adderall I decided to also release (to anyone that does read my blog in the first place) my true reasons of quitting my perscription.
I want to be a pilot. I want to fly airplanes and I want to fly for a regional carrier someday and hell the day I read on the FAA website that adderall is not a perscription allowed for a holder of a pilots license I had to make a decision. I am not going to lie, I almost chose no. But how God damn pathetic would it be to let a perscription drug you pretty much put yourself on for personal benefits in school and college stand in the way of your dreams.
I chose I want to be a pilot.
– Your Friendly Anonymous Adderall Abuser ❤️