Today begins Day 15!!!!
Yay, and then again… Not yay. This is the time where the insomnia is kicking in, and I am starting to feel the depression eating at me. It’s like I feel lost.
I keep asking myself:
Who am I?
Do I really want this?
Who was I before I started taking adderall six years ago?
Why do I feel so depressed and unhappy when I have the world in my hands?
I know these are common feelings but adderall withdrawl makes them extremely intensified.
I feel so LOST. I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore. Or who I used to be. It’s like I am starting from the beginning. But I don’t even remember how I felt in the beginning….
I just want to be rebalanced again already. I want to feel like me. The old me. But who the hell was that girl anyways? Do I even remember her? It scares me.
Day 15 is still just… Day 15. I just have to keep reminding myself that this WILL be worth it in the end. And THIS IS TEMPORARY (I hope).
“Just keep swimming, just keep swimming…”
– You’re Friendly Anonymous Adderall Abuser 💋