41 days off adderall 😁

  
I don’t know how it happened but I have been so busy I didn’t even realize I have made it to 41 days off my adderall perscription!  My energy levels are still a little funky, and my memory when it comes to homework.  

Unfortunately,

The weight gain is real.  I’ve gained ten pounds since I’ve been off my adderall, but now that I’ve finally been going back to the gym hopefully I can reverse that process.

Still having a hard time being motivated with things.  Each day gets better, and better.  I can feel the difference.  Working out really helps.  

If I can do it anyone can do it.  I have always had huge problems with addictions my whole life.  Being addicted to adderall was something I never thought I would see the day coming.  Especially after being on the drug for six whole years.

Stay positive πŸ™‚

Your friendly anonymous adderall abuser 😘😘😘

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Day 31 off Adderall 😍

  

So yesterday I spent the entire day celebrating my ONE MONTH OFF MY ADDERALL PERSCRIPTION!

I am so proud of myself it’s ridiculous.  Every day I slowly feel better, and better.  Quitting cold turkey felt like shit, and I’m not going to lie the first two weeks were probably the worst two weeks of my entire life.  I’ve never experienced that type of withdrawl from anything before, and I was so sick, and felt so messed up mentally, and physically.  

I am so glad I made this blog because even though no one really reads it, I get a full look at my transformation through my withdrawl process since I started tapering off my 45 mg dose towards the end of June. 

I was going to make my cut off day December 31, but I am so proud I did it sooner.  I feel like I was more safe that I did taper in the beginning.  If I quit 45 mg cold turkey versus 25 mg cold turkey I definitely could have died.  I had such bad withdrawls, if they were twice that I don’t know how I would have made it through.

I am going to continue my blog but I really do believe the worst part is over.  Now I just continue to heal πŸ˜‡

Anything is possible if you set your mind to it.

– Your Friendly Anonymous Adderall Abuser πŸ’‹

23 Days off Adderall πŸ‘ŠπŸ»

  
Hey guys,

You know… Getting off a schedule 2 perscription drug is not a joke.  It is nothing to make fun of, point fingers at, belittle, or humiliate a person going through their withdrawls. 

Every day I am a step closer to getting better.

My main reason I am making this post in particular is because I had a situation last night at my job.  I confided with my boss about what I was going through, and it obviously is a personal matter, and in no way shape or form a joke.

Later on in the night we got into an argument and he started to talk behind my back to my coworkers about my adderall withdrawls. Not only did it hurt really bad, but that information was personal.  My boss needs to know what I am going through because in the beginning I was definitely a wreck.  Bout to share with other coworkers in an angry way, and to belittle me, and talk down really made me feel like shit.

I left work crying, and three hours early.  It just made me feel like all the progress I have been making meant nothing. It made me feel like I am not getting better.  It truly made me feel like I was regressing.

So in honor of this post please if you have friends that are going through withdrawls be as nice to them as you can.  Everyone is fighting their own battles. 

Be around people that SUPPORT you!  No one else!

– Your Friendly Anonymous Adderall Abuser πŸ’‹

Still hating everything on Day 18

  
Well,

Today I cried infront of my chief, couldn’t make it to class, and spent the entire rest of the day laying around my house.  Definitely still withdrawling.  Definitely still hating everything.  Definitely feeling the depression, and loss of motivation towards things.  I have no attention span or motivation to do homework of any kind.  I feel like shit, and my nose hasn’t stopped running but I’m not sick. This just blows.  Can’t turn back though once I have made it this far. Surprisingly I haven’t really had any adderall cravings.  Just one really bad one, but most toward the beginning when I was at work.  I hope this gets better and I stop feeling so dull and unmotivated.

– Your Friendly Anonymous Adderall Abuser πŸ’‹

The beginning of the “trying to find yourself again” stage…

  
Here starts the beginning of the hard as hell part…. Trying to put all the damn puzzle pieces back together, while also looking for the missing ones…

 
Keep in mind, this is a real basic timeline of adderall withdrawl and verries depending on duration on the drug, and the dosage.  

Today begins Day 15!!!!

Yay, and then again… Not yay.  This is the time where the insomnia is kicking in, and I am starting to feel the depression eating at me.  It’s like I feel lost.  

I keep asking myself:

Who am I?

Do I really want this?

Who was I before I started taking adderall six years ago?

Why do I feel so depressed and unhappy when I have the world in my hands? 

I know these are common feelings but adderall withdrawl makes them extremely intensified.

I feel so LOST.  I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore.  Or who I used to be.  It’s like I am starting from the beginning.  But I don’t even remember how I felt in the beginning….
I just want to be rebalanced again already.  I want to feel like me.  The old me. But who the hell was that girl anyways?  Do I even remember her?  It scares me.

πŸ˜“

Day 15 is still just… Day 15.  I just have to keep reminding myself that this WILL be worth it in the end.  And THIS IS TEMPORARY (I hope).

“Just keep swimming, just keep swimming…”

– You’re Friendly Anonymous Adderall Abuser πŸ’‹

2 weeks.. DOWN!

  
I MADE IT TO TWO WEEKS!

The feeling of making it even that far is seriously amazing to me.  I am so proud of myself.  I never thought I could get this far even.  Still getting very irritable, mood swings and chronic fatigue but no more panic attacks at least.  I am having some difficulty sleeping which isn’t good.  I’m just trying to keep myself  busy. Addrena is saving my friggin life.  I just take it in half amounts and only one or one and a half a day so I am not abusing it and using it really as an adderall substitute.  There is no crash associated with Addrena, and it also really helps me get through my homework.  I can feel my brain just being so much more forgetful still… And I’m assuming it’s a withdrawl symptom.  I’m more forgetful now, and spacey… But I am sure it will get better over time. 

  

“Although the process is painful, it will be worth it in the long run, and I’m keeping my eyes on the finish line.”

Have a great weekend friends,

– You’re Friendly Anonymous Adderall Abuser πŸ’‹