So it’s been a week. It has been a struggle and a fucking half. That’s why I haven’t been able to post. I have been taking Redd Remedies “In Joy” and “Sam-e” so I have been experiencing every withdrawl symptom except depression. I have been having insane dreams I actually texted out to my friend when I woke up. Last night, and the night before were the worst and led to nightmares. I have been having panic attacks periodically but the worst at night at work (I usually would take my adderall at 4:30ish because I work dinner shifts). I definitely believe the scientific facts about your brain being on a clock, and I can definitely tell my body knows it’s not getting that burst of amphetamines at that time of the day like it’s used to. I just wish I knew how long accute withdrawl symptoms for someone on my dose, and duration last… Because I’m managing but I can’t live my life this way. I have been having panic attacks so bad at work I have to go into the bathroom and take deep breaths, and pray until my heart rate slows down. They just come on out of nowhere. The past two days I had a very hard time waking up in the morning. I overslept through 6 alarms and was having vivid dreams throughout the snooze alarm time period which is definitely not normal. Your brain isn’t supposed to dream in seven minutes. All of my dreams have been so vivid I thought they were real. One scared me so bad because I woke up (in the dream) and I had to lean against the wall because my vision started blurring and warped into the shape of a skull… I am having pregnant woman like dreams but I just ended my period.
I just keep trying to tell myself it won’t be like this forever. I just hope I don’t murder someone throughout the process. Or get fat as a whale 😟
Keep my readers posted.
Wish my luck.
-You’re Friendly Anonymous Adderall Abuser 💋